I talked to Seth for a long time.
The seconds turned to minutes.
The minutes might have turned to hours.
I had no way of knowing.
I did not worry about it. I did not feel like I was on a time limit any longer like I had with Edward.
This was nice….well…it would be nice if I was not talking about losing the guy I love, and either being turned into a vampire or being killed.
There was not a good answer and certainly not an easy answer.
I still could not forget the dangers that lay just a few days away. Why did my life have to be so complicated? I'm a good person!
I still could not figure out why I could just talk to Seth like I could, for hours on end.
He always knew how to comfort me and make me feel better, normally by joking around. I could not do that with hardly nay body else, aside from Jacob, I could not talk like this to any of the rest of the wolf pack, especially not to Seth's older sister Leah.
She did not really like me, for whatever reason.
Eventually Seth had convince me that everything was going to be okay, no matter what happened next week. Jacob would still love me, whether I was part of the undead or not….I think.
"Thanks, Seth.." I said hugging him just as he replied, "No probs, Bells."
With a huge, trademark Seth grin.
"You ready to back?" He asked, now on his feet but not in a way that said -ugh, you're so annoying I cant wait to get away from you look but a look that said, that he cared about my safety and not rushing me.
"You go on ahead, I think I'm gonna hand out here for a little while." I said with a small smile.
He looked unsure about leaving me.
"Are you sure you…"
I cut him off.
"Seth, I'm sure. You should get back anyway, I don’t want them worrying about them."
He looked unsure of if he really should leave, but knew not to argue with me.
As he turned to go, I called after him for one quick favor.
"Hey Seth," He spun around. "Could you tell Jake that I'm fine but not to come get me…I just want some time alone…to think."
"No problem Bella." He said smiling, before turning and running (at a much faster speed than any normal person) before I could yell 'thank you.'
Looking out over the cliffs always seemed to put things into perspective for me...in one way or another.
I really needed to think through this, once I made a decision, there was no going back.
Once I made this decision I could not change my mind.
It would be permanent.
I stared out at the beautiful cliffs of La Push not able to force my self to believe that this would most likely I sat on this rock and gazed at them as Bella Swan…as me.
Because I was either going to be killed by the Volturi for knowing too much.
…Or I would be a vampire and I would not be the same as I am right now.
It was a very depressing thought.
I loved it here.
I loved these cliffs.
It seemed to me like whatever was wrong in life whatever problems I was facing, I could always come here and those problems and fears would disappear.
The sun was setting.
Normally, due to the fact that I was absolutely terrified of the dark, I would leave and go home, to cook for Charlie…but something inside me just made me feel like I should stay.
The very mention of Charlie's name sent chills up my spine and tears filled my chocolate brown eyes.
My poor dad who was completely oblivious to the world I was so immersed and involved so deeply in.
Charlie. The poor dad who I was about to have to say good bye to…forever.
Because even if I did just become a vampire I could not be around him…it would be way too dangerous.
I had thought that when I chose Jacob that I would stay human and not have to say good bye to anybody.
I thought that I could remain in contact with my dad.
Apparently I was wrong.
None of us had thought about the Volturi and that I had to become one of them because I knew of their existence…none of us had thought about that.
I was past the point of trying to cover my tears.
I let them fall freely from my face…completely heartbroken.
This was not supposed to happen.
I folded my knees to my chest, placing my chin on top and wrapping my hands around my legs…tears flowing down my face.
Suddenly something cold touched my shoulder.
Something ice cold.
Not the Cullens though.
This was a stranger.
I felt like I was in danger.
Out of the corner of my eyes I saw that It was a woman vampire's hand.
Long, delicate finger, with perfectly manicured, French tipped nails.
They had an evil look to them.
Like something in a horror movie.
I slowly turned around, scared to see to whom the hand belonged.
As I met her eyes I felt fear and confusion.
The red eyes stared at me in an evil way.
The one who had at one point had a thing for Edward… well actually as far I know she still had a thing for him…and she hated me.
She probable thought I was still with him.
I had known that she wanted vengeance.
But still…why would she want to hurt me.
I was full of fear.
I didn’t know what was going to happen to me.
"Hello Bella." She said cocking her tiny, amazingly beautiful head to the side, making her strawberry blonde hair rest on her shoulder.
"I've been waiting for this moment." She laughed maniacally and a sly smile appeared on her beautiful marble like face.