My body ached and everything was sore. My nose was running and my throat ached. I couldnt move my body without something protesting in pain. I hated this. I reached for my phone. Texting Kyle telling him i wouldnt be coming into day. That took most of my energy but i needed to go check on my mom. I forced myself moaning and wincing in pain the whole time. I dropped to my knee's crawling to my mother's room. I sat on my knee's opening the door. She was laying on her back. Her eyes open and staring at me. She blinked but she wasnt alert. I closed my eyes. Laying my head in the door letting the darkness take over.
"Yes, she was screaming." I heard a voice say. "Has she ever talked about her?" I heard a deep masculine almost bell like voice ask. "No, she's so guarded and private." I heard Seth say. "But she never let me in her house." Seth said. "I knew something was wrong." Seth said with worry and regret in his voice. "It sounds like her mother is in a very bad place mentally." I heard the bell- like masculine say to Seth. I felt something cool touch my head and it felt nice. "Do you know how long?" Seth said his voice closer. "In a few moments." I heard a bell- like voice feminine voice say. "I'm afraid to touch her i'm probably still to warm." Seth said his tone full of worry now. "No, she's back to her normal temperature." The Masculine voice said. I opened my eyes and everything was dark at first then it turned hazy until it was clear. "Janaila, do you need anything?" Seth said. I turned and looked at my angel. He was so beautiful even with all the worry painted into his beautiful face. My throat was dry but my body felt if not tired but a whole lot better. "No." I said my voice dull. I slowly sat up my body still deep in sleep. Seth tried to help me up but i shooed him away. I looked around and the breathe was knocked out of me. Everyone was so beautiful it made me want to cry. Eight pair of hazels eyed living gods were staring at me. A pretty woman with dark chestnut hair and a sweet smile introduced herself. "Hello i'm Esme Cullen Resnesmee's grandmother." She said sweetly. Her voice was even beautiful. Soft but with a touch of what sounded like bells. A man wrapped his arm around her and smiled. "Hello I'm Doctor Carlisle Cullen." The man whose voice i knew belonged to the masculine one was hearing. Seth tried to take my hand but i kept them to myself. I could feel the hurt and confusion but i didnt care. "Thank you for having me in your home." I said in a polite matter of fact tone. I stood up and started folding the blankets. Seth tried to help but i would just snatch them from him. "Janaila, before you leave may we discuss something." Doctor Carlisle said. I kept my back turned and i calmed myself trying to not cry from hurt and embarressment. I turned back around and looked at the beautiful doctor. He had a small smile and his white teeth glistened slightly. He had on a black crew neck and some khaki shorts. His his was a light blonde and he was just perfection. "Thank you again i really apperciate all of this." I said trying to walk to the door. A warm hand grabbed mine and i pulled away. "Why was your mother screaming?" Seth said. I felt the anger rising and i felt my defense wall building. "Seth, just leave me alone." I said. "No, tell me why your mother was screaming Janaila?" Seth said. "It's not any of your business Seth." I said trying to leave. Seth grabbed me and spun me around. "Your my business Janaila." He said his tone pleading and his face practically begging. My wall was built and i hated myself. I hated myself for doing this. I hated myself for masking Seth's beautiful light with my overbearing darkness. I hated myself for loving him. For letting him love me. "Seth, Sweetie this is not the time." Esme's voice gentle and a warning. I felt the anger building and then explode. "No, You all want to know." I said seeing red. "About a year ago my mom with pregnant with twins." "They were born on September 30th 2012 at 9:30am." The died on October 3rd 2012 at 9:30am." I said yelling at the top of my lungs. "Her husband who was supposed to take care of her and love her through better and worse left her with her bestfriend." I yelled. "Everyone's left her everyone who loved her took a piece of her." "She screams at least once a night waking up from nightmares." "All she says now is "There died, he's gone." "That's it." I said. "Do you still love me?" I said to Seth. He stood there silent tears falling softly down his face. He walked towards me trying to reach out to me. "No, Seth." "No." I screamed. "I can't do this." "Please don't make me do this." I said pleading with him not to love me. Seth pulled me close bringing his lips to mine whispering. "Let me love you." "Let me fix this." He said pleading with me. My heart was cracking and it was getting hard to breathe. I needed to do this or i would stay and ruin him bite by bite. "I can't." I said pushing away from Seth. I ran and ran until i reached my house. I closed the door behind me and walked to my mother's room. I curled up next to her letting the tears fall softly down my cheeks. Letting myself feel the pain that i hoped killed me.
An- So, she met the Cullens. Not a good meeting but it's all going to get better. Please comment. Thanks for reading.
Songs i used-
Florence and the machine-