I know! Because of you I'm still alive and not in a psychward, and about a million other things. You've made me stronger and made everything I've gone through worth it to know you. When I want to take the wreck back and for it to go away or go back in time and warn myself, I stop, cause I think, without the wreck I wouldn't know you, and even if I did know you, we wouldn't have bonded so strongly, and that right there is worth more than anything in the world! I love you forever and ever and beyond!!!!! I Adore You and am so Happy!
because of this dude who had this crush on me and he was like 20 and im 14 and he waned mii number and address and stuff and i wouldnt give it to him and he kept asking me for them, but i wouldnt give them t him..and its okay i havent been on very much either lately lolz.yeah im better and im really happy im not sick anymore it was bad. but like yeah tonight mii best friend sierra is over and here and i are going to add these hilarious videos to youtube if we can get them to download on mii computer. ha ha they are very funny you will have to watch them when we get them on youtube.pretty please loook at them:) you will laugh at me dancein it really funny lolz
talk to you soon i miss you:)ttyl love ya byezz
hey! long time no talk bella!
btw its madi lol i changed my name and stuff for a reason so yeahhhhhh.
but omg! i miss you sooo much we need to talk like we used to!
how are you????what have you been up too???lol sorry! im fulkl of questions today*laughs*
i have been doing okay i got h1n1 and since i got it like totally weakened my insides cuz like im getting sick left and right which really sucks cuz i keep missing school then i have to stay away from my friends so i dont get then sick and right now i have some kind of virus but i dont know what kind and niether does the doctor cuz there are over 459 different kinds of !unbelieveable lol
so talk to you soon! miss you lotz!ttyl haha i kinda told ya that twince but who cares lol
Yeah....and I doubt I will move for a while. we love it here. but we are getting some new kid and he acts like edward so ill look out!!! and he like me so maybe im a bella. lol jk i just wanted to sound like a nice town. still boring NO ONE NEW SINCE ME!!!!! still live in Siberia or Serbia or wherever?? hope I get to come on sonn.....its been a while
Yeah, but I don't tell half as much on there, no I don't tell 80% as much, hard to get on to and just yuk, but here I can get to easily and just like better, so I tell more. LOVE YOU, ADORE YOU, MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay, so lovely facebook wouldn't let me tell you what I was trying to tell you.
Okay, so my depression today isn't that bad today, been a little too sick to care, but that's fine. I just watched tv, read, and ate.
Okay, so I that thing Iva said about the whole positve thoughts=positive spirit or whatever, well that inspired me to do something, so sadly, tell her thanks, I know you hate her. But what I was saying, it made me think, and I realized that it never helped that when I was depressed people would tell me what was wrong with me and make me feel worse or not come out, or not want to do something fun like dress up crazy and take pictures when I'm in a good mood, which lifts my mood and can last for days, just ask Kaycee(who I need to get over here soon, one of the few who brings sunshine that I have seen since like July 17th, well, 18th in the morning when she left and once after that for like 2 seconds for her to drop off Eclipse, I'm gonna have to text her after this), she's the only one who will do it with me, well Jaimie did a few times, but as soon as she's in front of Nathan and I'm talking about how much fun I had she says, "It wasn't that fun." Which drops my mood a bit. So now they have to be positive around me, I mean it too. No negative telling me what's wrong with me till I feel selfish and a disappoint, failure, and screw up, so NO more of that. But then I thought some more of what Iva said to US, and it hit me. You remember those books I was telling you about, the House of Night series, well in it the main character Zoey is Cherokee, and guess what! I'm Cherokee, which is American Indians. I could say I have Indian blood, but it's American Indian blood on my mom's side and French Canadian blood on my dad's, there might be some American Indian on my dad's side, but I can't remember what he said, we're so many thing it's ridiculous! I'm part Irish, French, English, Canadian, Scottish, Native American and a few other, I'm missing, I think, I odn't know but you get the picture, so.
Well, the Cherokees, which I forgot we were till my mom reminded me today when I spoke of it and how I wished to try this. Well, they have these rituals, for everything, but there's this one that's a cleansing ritual, where you say this type of prayer, don't remember, while bathing your body in smoke of white saga and this other plant I can say but spelling is another thing, something like eucyupse or I don't know, but you burn them on a smudge stick and run it up your body then down, turn around and do it again while saying the prayer. But it's suppose to get rid of negative energy or whatever's causing it. There's also a protective thing where you take a white pillar candle and on a full moon you say a pray and leave it in the moonlight so that it can soak in the moon's energy all night then you can burn it while you slept and it will thwart of any evil think, even things that hurt us like depression, you may not believe all this stuff, but you never know, my answers can definitly help me:) But I'm research the Cherokees cause I find them interesting now that it's not my uncles teaching it to me, that's boring, but I find it interesting now, so.
Well, that was long and I see why facebook wouldn't post it from my phone, one, it sucks, and two, it was too long and three, oh, it sucks:) LOVE YOU, ADORE YOU, AND MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!