*I sighed,* You're right. I'm probably freaking you out right now. *I chuckled a little and kissed the back of your hand,* I'm sorry for acting like this, but I just can't help from being so concerned. You're my sister, and I love you.
Well, what is there left to say. . . SO much! Im bad at explaining things, so this is hard. I'm also very bad at admitting my feelings, as you've probably seen. Im still confused as to whats going on, but i don't care. I need to get this out. I Love You. You see that word at the end of the sentence? It's You. Which means You. Tammy Underwood. I love you like i've never loved before. The only one who could ever compare to you is our precious daughter because she is apart of me and loved by you. But i want you to know, your apart of me as well. You always have been. Since the day i finally let myself let go and cry. . . on you. Cuddled into your chest like you were my safe haven, which if I'm being honest, you are. You want to go to collage, and I'm so thrilled you do! I want you too. I was being stubborn before, immensly so. Saying that i couldn't go. But i can. I want to. I want to be where ever you go. Be where ever you are so I can see the pure beauty and love that radiates from you every second of the day. I've had a rough upbringing, but I'm not complaining because I'm perfectly fine about it, only when I'm with you though. I forget everything that i could possibly dwell on in your presence. It disappears and leaves only the love and joy and all the other extraordinarily feelings reserved especially for you. Ever heard of the song Love On Top by the amazing Beyonce Knowles? Well thats the exact song I've associated with you. That is my song to you, because i feel it's true. Thats how much i love you and believe in us, together. Im writing this because I'm fighting. Im fighting for you and for everything we've had because i know i'll never forget as long as i live. Which is why i had done what i did the other day. Tried to take my life away. It wouldn't help anything, i know that now. But it still doesn't change the fact that i am beyond my breaking point right now. Im making things hard for everyone, you and Rachel Especially. Im sorry. Very very and truly sorry. Sorry for everything i have put you through because you deserve none of my crap and B****iness. Well i have another song in mind by the great Beyonce because i know this is getting pretty long. But it need to be said. I love you Tammy. So I will let the song do the rest of the talking.