Hey Esme I'm back sabout my jeep I do love it but I just am tired of dealing with it there is always something wrong with it and I can't always afford to fix it. I am doing betyet lately still not 100% but getting there. The gym helps alot! I have been there every day this month and I'm going to try rely hard to keep it up. I will miss a few days due to my trip to portland but I will get right back to it once in home. I think it's great that you get to choose what house you want and you.and Ethan get to make it what you want. Thats really cool! I'm lucky too that I dint have to pay vills. I help my mom out if she ever needs it and I get groceries every now and then and pick things up when needed to help her out. Ok so if there are tons of mistakes its because I'm on my phone for the 1st time on this site. Lol ok well I'm super tired and I have the gym in the morning I'm taking belly dancing/eastern dancing I'm oretty excited about it and I just watched a walk to remember and I cried like a baby so my eyes are tired and burning so in going to pass out. Ill be on tomorrow hoping for an update!!! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan from Carter and I!
Hey Esme! Im doing better. I am started to get really excited for my trip to portland! I leave thursday morning!!! I hope to get an update out of you this weekend so I have something to tide me over till I get back! lol I missed the PCAs but I saw a clip of RPatts getting an award and WOW! I kinda love his hair but kinda hate it. lol Ok well Im sorry but I just got back from the gym and ate lunch now I have to shower! ill be on later and Ill update you more on whats going on here. Big Em hugs!
Hey Esme! Im glad all is well and that Ethan is doing so well with everything! I know he is such a great lil man! I am sad to say that my bedroom is at a complete stand still! lol I havent gotten the paint let alone started on it. I have just been lazy with it but I have kicked my gym time up ALOT! I am there everyday and sometimes 2x a day. I am also walking tinka 5x a week so that has been one of the things stopping my creativity. I have also been looking for a job and putting applications in. I need a paying job because I need a new car. I just cant deal with my jeep much longer. Im tired of something always being worng with it. I want a mazda3 hatchback! I saw a 2004 one that I absolutely love and its not ridiculsly expensive so that is my motivation to get a job! I also really really need to move out of my moms! Iam going crazy living here and its not good for Carter and I! Lately I have been really trying to be upbeat and positive but its getting harder I just hate not working and I am fighting depression with the gym and what not but it gets harder ever day and I dont like talking about it but I know you wont judge me or see me differently and that is such a relief. Im afriad to tell anyone I dont like when people think less of me or pity me and I know I cant trust that you wont! Im glad I have you! Ok enough of the downer stuff! lol You have to update soon cause its my lil escapefrom my life and I love/need it every now and then! lol Ok well I have to get back to laundry and picking up the house so ill be on tomorrow! Oh and btw the house is rarely dirty since I dont work. lol my mom loves it. Ok big Em hugs to you and Ethan!!!!
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Hey Esme Im back I have a break right now. Just got home from yoga and now im going to do some laundry and cleaning and a lil later I am going to get my hair done. I dont know what im going to do and its making my head spin trying to figure out how I want to get it done! lol Our New years eve was good I spent the night in with Carter. We hung out and watched tv and went to bed at 930. I wanted to watch the ball drop on eastern time but I was a few minutes late so I was a lil sad but oh well. Things are good here. Busy but good. I actually dont have the job anymore. I just talked to the girl this morning and she said that she hates that she cant pay me and that it doesnt feel right for her to have me help her. I think its crap and that she is just being ridiculus . ok I lied I have to go run somewhere for my sis so ill try and get on here later. lol bye for now!
Hey Esme! I totally understand why you didnt update. Its ok but now that you pinky promised im going to hold you to it. lol I am sorry this is going to be short I have a busy busy day ahead of me. Ive already took tinka for an hour long walk and made breakfast for Carter and I and that just barely the beginning. Carters playdate was good. He loves playing with his friends and he sleeps so well that night so its a win win situation. lol I am good and I am glad that the funeral is over and that hopefully the sadness is over. I will be on later to write more I just wanted to get back to you. Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!
Hey Esme! WOW! That is alot to deal with Im sorry! I couldnt imagine the pain that you all are going through or what he was feeling I dont even want to think of how horrible that would be losing a child. Well ummm good stuff... I went to the bath and body works and got a ton of candles cause they are having the best deal!!! Carter had a play date today its still going on actually I also went to lowes to check out paint and I have it narrowed down to 2 colors and since I am having such a hard time deciding I am thinking of doing stripes. My room is turning out great I am so stoked I love it!!! We are doing good here and I am beyond stoked to read more updates!!! I have to go so Ill try and get on later or tomorrow. big Em hugs to you and Ethan!!!
Hey Esme I know how you feel. I got Carter clothes cause I knew everyone else was getting him toys and I asked him if he liked the clothes I got him and he said yes I love them. So sweet. I got him a shaun white leather jacket and a UW t shirt cause that is where he says he wants to go to college and camo fleece pj bottoms a hoody that is special made for him and my guy friend that is in the army. They came up with thier own lil "special forces" team and so I made them matching hoodies. He LOVES it. lol Its nice to know that he liked everything not just the toys and expensive things. Ok I cant wait for updates but I have got to get some laundry folded! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!
Hey Esme Im back! I went to my moms uncles house after I deep cleaned and rearranged my room. I had a very good Christmas tons of family which for once there was no fights!!! yay us. lol I love my presents!!! My mom got m2 plane tickets to portland to go see my friend that just came home for a very short visit! I also got a bunch of stuff for my room. I got new bedding and a really nice picture from and a really nice lamp! My sis got me a gift card to home depot so I can buy paint to repaint my room so it all goes togther. I am so excited to do it! I also got a few lil things and Carter(my mom) got me a really nice necklace. It is kinda like a dog tag(military not actual dog) lol necklace with Carters name on it with a jewel thing that is Carters birthstone and my gma got my a $50 gift card to victorias secret which ill be using when I go down 2 more sizes. My cousins got a membership at the gym I got to so Ill have a few more other people to go with so thats awesome my step dad got me dance central for the kinect so Im stoked about that too!! I think Carter scored the best he got the brand new AMAZING touch screen leappad thing thats like a kids ipad. lol He also got a portable dvd player and like 20 dvds. Ok well enough of my gushing about what I got. lol I was so beyond happy with the LGL update. One of my fav christmas presents!!!!! I forgot how much I loved that story! You have to keep writing that one!!! Ok well I am going to go Ill be on later or tomorrow! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!!!
Hey Esme Im glad Ethan is ok and that he doesnt need any major surgery. Of course as a mom any surgery no matter how big or small it is it can be scary but that little boy is a freaking trooper so I have no doubt he will have no problem with it. I am glad you guys are having a good christmas break. Today we arent doing anything but cooking and cleaning for tomorrow. We do everything but Santas present on christmas eve. We are making dinner and taking it over to my gmas house for the big family thing. Last night was one of the best presents!!! My best friend that moved to portland and her fiance that I love came home for christmas and her parents threw them a lil party so I spent from 630-3am with them and friends! Ive missed them so much it was kinda surreal to see her in person. Last night Carter and my sister made a TON of cookies and I am doing my best to stay away but ive already had a couple and I ate a handful of sweets last night so I am going to be kicking my butt at the gym after christmas. My guy friend thats in the army and just got back from afghanistan is coming home for most of jan. so I am trying my best to slim down as much as I can and I have also started tanning to get a lil color. lol I am just having an amazing week! I wish we were closer I would make you cookies too! I hope you are having a good christmas eve and christmas. I cant wait for updates!!!! Ok well I have TONS!!! of laundry to do and if I want clean clothes I better get on it. Big Em hugs to you and Ethan! Merry Christmas!!!!
Oh Esme I am so happy to hear from you! I was so worried!!! I am sorry you have been going through hell! You deserve a long big break from all the crazyness! I hope you are setting some time for yourself to just breathe in the mix of it all! I know how you feel about christmas shopping. I keep finding that I have forgotten something or missed someone and I have been scrambling to get things done and I still have tons of wrapping to do. I hate wrapping! I pretty much SUCK at it. lol Oh Ethan is so adorable. Carter didnt have a church program this year but he did last year and he just stood there and looked pissed off. lol Im sorry this is going to be short but I just wanted to see if you came on. Which Im glad you have Zach to help with the laptop problems! I have to get to cleaning and then make Carter dinner then he has karate. Did I tell you that he got his jr green belt?!?! He is so cute in it! Ok back to work I go! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!
Hey Esme! I am good. Ive been super busy lately. Work is getting crazier and crazier. I love it and am welcoming all the craziness and changes. I also been getting back to the gym so I am happy about that. I am beyond stoked for LGL!!! I am going to make this short cause I have to clean and do a load of laundry before I put Carter to bed and I know I am lacking in the sleep department so I will be passing out shortly after he is out. As for weather I am not happy about it here. Cold al heck and windy. I want so (stomps feet throwing a tantrum) lol It just doesnt feel like the holidays without snow. I want to play and I want it to be pretty! Ill try to come on tomorrow and check out if you got the update up. Crossing my fingers hehehe How are you and Ethan? Is he feeling better and how about you. Im sorry you both have been not good! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan from Carter and I !!!
Oh Esme I am so sorry Ethan got worse and he had to go through that. I completely understand dont worry. Helping Ethan is more important! I have been a lil busy but just cleaning so its all good. I have to go shopping today for a dress Ill explain later ugh Im not really looking forward to today. lol Ill be on later for sure since I have 3 new messages I have to read. For now its time to get ready for a long painful afternoon. lol Big Em hugs to you and Ethan! He is in my prayers and Ill send some healthy vibes your way!
Hey Esme! I am so happy to hear about all the updates this week! I am sorry Ethan is sick again. Carter is fighting the bug STILL!!! Just when we think its gone he wakes up unable to breathe. I feel for you its so hard to see our lil guys sick! Other than that we are doing good. I am so tired lately! I had planned on sleeping in all weekend but no I was up by 8am all weekend! It sucked. Work is good they have another computer that they hooked up in the office so I dont have to use my laptop anymore. Im sorry but this is going to be short again. lol Im totally with you about winter. It can be so pretty but its rare here too. We have had some crappy weather grey and windy super windy. I cant wait for snow I say that now but once it snows and the roads get bad ill be cursing it. lol I have to drive up and down a steep hill for work so I dont know how well ill handle that. Ok sorry have to go switch the laundry and fold and put it away then get Carter ready for bed. Im hoping putting him to bed early will help him get the rest his body needs. Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!
Oh Esme!!! I absolutely love the banners!!! They were perfect! I wanted to check about some updates on here but I cant type much so its going to be a short comment. lol I cut my finger and its a pain (more annoying than anything) to type. lol. I have a lot of mistakes. My bday was really good. My sis took me to breakfast then we went shopping and my mom paid for me to get a birthday outfit. I pick a really cute outfit but got it a size smaler so I have some motivation to get my big butt back in the gym. These past 2 days I have done nothing but eat and drink and I swear I have gained like at least 10 lbs!! ugh ok well anyways I cant wait for my bday updates!!! lol I love it! I cant wait to read them all! Thank you so much for the banner the updates and your friendship! You are pretty awesome!!! Big Em hugs to you and Ethan!!!